I think what matters tremendously …

I think what matters tremendously is how we fill ourselves up, the content that instigates our thoughts and endeavors, the way we spend our days, and the people we tie our time to, purposely or by apathetic association. Who you are today is who you will have been tomorrow. We are so much more the making of our history than we want to admit. We’re pushed to plan for a different life and thus judge and size ourselves up against anything but the reality of our own presence, our own beautifully flawed world, our own here and now. Because if we did that, if we lived with intention and integrity, we would courageously fill ourselves with what really mattered, which of course are the small things, the moments to slow down and let go, and the people you would choose to love and love better day after day after day.

So stop being assholes.

Amplified Stillness

I chose to stay present,
to unlearn how to unlove,
to love,
and to practice
my worthiness of it.

- Buddy Wakefield

fists unfolding

Listen to the stillness. The crisp, cold air demands you turn your breath back to your chest. Everything is going to be alright. Whisper it with me. Everything is going to be alright. There isn’t a perfect decision to be made, but you do have to decide. Acknowledge what you authentically desire right now, not what you think you should want, what we want you to want, or what makes you nostalgic for what you used to have. Once you are able to listen to your breath, search the strength in your self-efficacy, and step into the life you’ve made for this moment alone, your fists will unfold, your heart will open, your face will soften, and things will begin to be more than alright. Remember, at its worst, it will still be ok and once you take back the decisions that drive your days, things can be inconceivably marvelous. Don’t let the world make you hard. Don’t allow it to rob you of your resolve. You are sweet and strong and steadfast.  I know you’ve been hurt, my darling. I know you’ve seen the darkness, heard the noise that won’t stop, and carry scars from what was torn from the grip of your gut. Don’t let that pain make you bitter about today. The past needs forgiveness and you can not worry about the future. Be brave. Keep moving, but be present above the fray, above the debates in your head, above the endless opinions around you. This moment is the only true reciprocal gift you have with yourself. Listen to the stillness.